Last week I registered for the Chicago Game Jam, sponsored by IGDA Chicago. My hands were sweating as I hit the submit button on the ticket purchase. Don’t get me wrong I want to make games, and I want to do it here in Chicago. It’s just…I’ve wanted to chase this dream for so long, and fear has always paralyzed me. I’ve been scared that I wasn’t smart enough, that I didn’t have the proper skill set, that fate had simply ordained that it wasn’t in the cards for me. Perhaps all of that is true, I have no idea. Registering for a game jam though, makes me feel like I’m at least seeking that answer. I’ve spent the better part of my life believing that the dream of being a game developer was out of reach, but not pursuing it made that true by default. The Chicago Game Jam won’t make or break my dream to make games, but it’s the first step to asking a question that I’ve been utterly terrified of for 14 years; can I actually do this?
As our blog moves forward we’ll be covering events like the Chicago Game Jam, as well as participating in them. There is so much going on here in Chicago, from jams, to meetup groups, to seminars. All of it is so exciting, but making that leap from spectator to participant is always nerve wracking. That said, I’m the coolest guy ever, so I have that going for me.